Each day is precious...

Saturday was supposed to be our yard sale day where we finally get rid of all the junk my husband brings home that people leave in the apts when they are evicted or have moved. But that was changed and moved to beginning of Oct. So I had made plans and we were going to go run some numbers on a GMC YUKON, that I totally have been wanting. I like the Denali too alot. But anyways, we were going to test drive and see what I could get for my car and so such. That plan was cancelled too. Ray had to run to Covington (where our properties are) and collect little rent, and then was supposed to come back really quick. NOOOO. He ended up getting home near 11. His aunt and cousin thought the yard sale was on still so they showed up. We visitited with them for an hour and then Ray left to go to meet his friends. They were having a meeting at a bar on the river so they could get their football sheets. Something with scores and oh I don't know. That of course took longer then he said it would because he socializes and looses track of time. Six thirty rolled around and he finally walked through the door. I was upset but I got dinner out of the crummy day. LongHorn is soooo good ya'll. We spent the rest of the night together and that was nice. I love spending time with the Hubbs.

We found out some really sad news Sat. though too. I mean it's awful. Ray's mom was married and he died few years back. But he had kids. They were older and had families. But anyways one of the sons has a wife named Amber. She is the other daughter-in-law Amber lol. So she woke up with their ten month old at 2 in the morning. He wanted a bottle. She asked her hubby, Jake, to get the bottle for her. He didn't answer. She turned the light on and he was blue. He had said before they went to bed he didn't feel good. He died in his sleep and they think it was his heart. I haven't heard other wise yet. They have 3 boys under the age of 4 and one on the way due in December. Its so heartbreaking. I've been praying for them and that God will give her strength to make it each and every day without her best friend and Husband. They were together all the time. He was on disability, didn't get much money, but they were together and the kids always had a daddy around. The layout is Wed morning. Please keep Her and her boys in your prayers fellow readers.It was a shock to know that Jake died. He was only 30 years old. I've always told my husband Ray that no one is promised tomorrow. Laying in bed Saturday night I kept thinking about it and I finally said, I can't imagine what she is going through. Ray said he couldn't either.Even though things aren't the way I want them to be right now. I know that I am blessed. I have a husband who loves me and who will one day, In God's Timing, will be saved and living for God.I had a friend that said I complained alot about things that my husband does. I asked my husband did I do that. He said that yes I complained, but he knew that I had reason to because he doesn't do what he should. (likes spend more time with us and be romantic sometimes instead of practical all the time) I made a note in my head...there's plenty of room...lol to try to not saying negative things I don't want to be a negative person. I don't want to complain. After hearing about Amber's loss, I couldn't help but grab my husband and tell him I love him. If something were to happen to him, God forbid, I want him knowing that I truly loved him without a doubt. He said he never doubted that I loved him.

So anyways...enough sad stuff!

Sunday morning was pretty great. I was surprised and asked to sing. It's been a longtime since that's happened. I sang 'Because He Lives'. My friend asked me to sing it. I felt the annointing while singing and by the time I finished my knees were shaking b/c I was a nervous wreck. It sounded different. It was different. I've been praying that God will annoint me again. Not bring me back to the annointing that I had before I backslid, but to bring me to that point and then beyond. Sunday morning was just the beginning. I thank God for it. Sunday night in the prayer room. Sister Rhoda prayed for my voice that God would begin to restore...I had not told anyone...***tears coming to my eyes!***She prayed a prayer for me and I was just so moved. We had a time in the prayer room.We had praise team practice before church and we were singing a song I had a verse on. I had sang the song before and really felt like I bombed it. But this time I did have an annointing and I looked to the ceiling almost the entire time. Like I sang the song to God alone. I felt a difference and I know it's only the beginning. I want to be used by God. Some people, their ministry is to work with people. That is what their talent is. I feel like my talent and ministry is to allow God to use my voice. Not for any glory of my own. B/c without God I wouldn't have a voice or even be where I am today. I realized that when I backslid that music had become a talent. It wasn't something I was allowing God to use me in. He did use me. But it means something totally different to me now. We really had church Sunday night. Br. Pullens preached and it was a great word. I thank God that I have a pastor and pastor's wife and that I belong in the Apostolic Faith.