Storms may come and go, But God is always there.

Have you ever just been in a place that you seem to feel utter loneliness? For the past few days I've been fighting tears and just sadness and the feeling of being alone. I guess everyone goes through that now and again. But last night at church, when I went into the prayer room, I told God that he could have it all. Everything that had been bothering me, all of it, I laid it at his feet. I felt like I had a re-commitment to Him and the loneliness didn't seem to be as strong as before. I know I know we all get caught up in our daily lives and are especially busy when summer gets here. But I told God last night that I'm going to try my hardest to do what is right. To bridle my tongue when I really feel like speaking my mind, and to just look at situations from all sides. B/c no matter how upset I get at my husband or kids, or anyone else for that matter, it will be ok in the end. God is my faithful friend, who will never leave me. One of the leaders at the church said that when it seems like God is so very far away from you, he really is right there waiting to see what you will do. It's so very true. I worshipped and cried out to Him last night and I wasn't the only one. The young people brought tears to my eyes. I'm so proud of them. I remember how hard it was to worship in front of my peers. Once the Pastor's wife stood in front of me and my friend and told us that we had to pray and not worry about what the others thought about us doing it. She said she would stand in front so no one would see but God. I have never forgot that or the feeling that I felt and I just gave it all over to Him.
We had an awesome move of God before the preaching last night. And it was something I needed very much. The message last night was 'Five Minutes of Mercy'. What would you do if you had five minutes to seek after mercy from God?Heaven is real as well as Hell. Where do you want to go? My Pastor says that if he was going to live for God then he was going to do it with everything he had. Not live for God and still do things that we shouldn't be doing. It's one way or the other. I think that's true. I'm not perfect in the least and when I hear him say that it makes me want to live that way too. I can't win my husband by not living right.

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We finished the camping trip yesterday. Actually Saturday night after I got back from swimming, I went to the camper and got the kids down for bed. I packed up everything that I needed to go back home. Ray loaded my car up and I got to sleep sometime after one in the morning. I was soooo tired. I totally did not want to get up for Sunday morning service and I had to repent for even thinking of staying in bed. lol So I got up and got ready and packed the rest of the stuff into my car. Got both kids ready and we left for church while Ray laid in bed going back to sleep. But we didn't even make it off the road of the camp ground before Logan said Hallelujah and I couldn't help but smile. He knew we were going to church and he was excited. Ray brought the golf cart to our camping ground and then went back in the afternoon to get the camper and rest of stuff to take back to our camp ground. We could have stayed one more night at Eagle Valley, but decided to come on home. It was nice sleeping in my bed last night. I believe the kids are down for their afternoon nap, and I'm ready for one too. I'm always ready for a nap lol.